Monday, March 31, 2008

lazy day


Have you ever had those days, you have many things to do, many important things. But instead of doing it, you do things that is least important. Well today is the day, my exam is only round the corner, instead of studying well I do stuff that is other than study. Actually I don't feel like doing anything. hmm what to write here. Ok, what about a picture of 'Kek Lapis Sarawak' I use to sell this type of cake during Ramadhan for hari raya. I also tried to make one last year but fail miserably. I put too much colouring and the cake taste like eggs. Last year was the the first Hari Raya without my father. Early morning we, my mother, my sister and our husbands and children went to my late fathers' grave. Everytime I try to write about my father, tears will start rolling on my cheek. I have a small family, my father only had two daughter, me and my younger sister. The last days of his life, my sister is the one who took care of him. I really wanted to bring him to my house but unfortunately I have to take care of my husband who just had an accident. He broke his spine and cannot move around much. Alhamdullilah he is getting better now. But he is out of work. well may be I should stop now.

Sunday, March 30, 2008


Looking at this face make my heart warms. He is quite a handful, this little pack of energy. We celebrate his birthday a bit early, two days early to be exact . Still always crying he cried twice today, but on average he is in a good mood. We started the day with a movies in the afternoon, we watched Waterhorse and i guess he is satisfy with the movie. We bought present for him, his brother and sister also get one to. Then we buy cake a chocolate indulgence a bit to creamy for my taste but, overall we enjoy ourselves today.Hmm his asleep now. and so will I in a few minutes.

Friday, March 28, 2008

This Tuesday is my youngest sons' birthday. He is going to be six. My helper call him ahmad albab because he is always crying. Being the youngest he is a bit demanding. I don't think i pampered him but i guess he himself notice that nobody is younger than him in the family and that is why he is acting the way he is, but when he is with small children who is younger than him he can be very brotherly like. He already have a plan for his birthday from early in the morning till late at night. Looking at the picture I still remember when he is four he will scream frantically when the barber wanted to cut his hair. I would be sitting on the barber's chair holding him while he struggle and the barber nervously cuts his hair. but now he still don't like to get his hair cut but as yo can see he is smiling.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

mother


I receive this poem through my mail , my friend send it to me and i know most of it are true. my mother is still alive but my father passed away last year, he had Alzheimer's and his death is due to heart failure. How I wish I could spend more time with him. After he is gone I can sometimes see him laughing. he is a quiet person and very soft spoken. Oh how I miss him. When I was a little girl he always bring back goodies. he is a good father but I have not be a good daughter to him. I never try to really listen and understand him better. If only I can turn back time. I was his first baby and i know he was very proud of my. he will tell everybody he knows, about my achievements, i know this because someone told me years ago. I wish I have done more for him. all I can do now is pray for him and hope allah will forgive him of all his sin. alfatihah. abah i love you very much and I know you love me to. I know I am very much like him, quiet, shy but unlike him I had a chance to improve myself. My father was the only man in the house, when we his daughter called home we would always wanted to talk to mom, rather then him. I guess he felt lonely and unwanted.

it's me

Today is my third attempt to open a blog. The first two attempts fail. i cannot find my blog on the net. hopefully this time, would be the last.

My life is normal, some people would say it's boring nothing very interesting ever happen. never been out of Malaysia. never won any lottery. but why am I building this blog, well may be to spice up my life a little bit. to share my thoughts with others hope people will see the world the way I see it.

ops something did happened I'm doing my masters degree in physics education. yea!!! me. but the most interesting part is my first degree is on applied biology. Come to think of it, I guess it's a suicidal mission. I've never learned physics since my matrics years. What am i doing taking physics and learning quantum mechanics. Really, I don't understand quantum mechanics everything is probability. Actually the first reason is, I've been teaching physics to high school students for 6 years and i really need to improve my knowledge in physics. I have to know more than my students.
well guess that is my story for now. hope i can find this blog to update my posting had my finger crossed