For the rest of my life

Yesterday while cycling I listened to the songs in my handphone and there is one song by Maher Zain For the rest of my life

And there's a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I'll be with you
I'll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I'll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I'll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I'll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You're my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we're together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along

than it hits me these were the words my late husband use to say to me. he always say that I am a blessing for him. Thank god I stayed with him and supporting him until his last breath, Alhamdulillah. He use to call me his fourth baby the biggest baby in the house he he. I still remember on his last few hour his looks as if his getting better, he even teased me in front of his family he love to do that, may be because he love to see me smile in embarrassment. I am glad I was with him for the rest of his life, yes I was with him for the rest of his life. Alhamdulillah.

something

I've been staring at my lap top, typing and deleting. What should I write, so many things had happened and I don't know where to start. Should I write about work, or should I write about food instead. Hmm suddenly am feeling hungry he he, but I just ate Oh!. I've managed to lost 25 kg in 8 months. I control what I eat and exercise regularly. There is no short cut in losing weight I would say, because I've tried taking diet pills, diet drinks all fail, this is due to my failure to discipline myself . Eh but controlling intake of food and exercise need more discipline you might ask. Yes it does but somehow I managed to do it regularly and maintain it for 8 months. A big cheer for me yeaaaaaah. I do feel happier, and I guest I look younger ( he he you can disagree with me its a free world) ok, ok I feel younger, satisfied. when I weight 105 kg, yes I use to be very heavy, Obese. I always felt very tired, not active always sleepy. Now I am more energise, still heavy I am 80 kg now but lighter then before. My aim is to lose another 5 kg. I can do it, I know I can, I know I can tooot tooooot.

padang bulan

No matter how I want to sit down and write I will always find a reason not to, arghhhhh. Today I am determine, at least write something, anything, I have to start writing again. So being guilty for abandoning my passion I want to write about a book I've read, written by Andrea Hirata. I love his writing, love the way he plays around with words, how I wish I could write like him.

Andrea Hirata author of Lasykar pelangi had come with a new book entitled Padang bulan and cinta dalam gelas. He still maintain his cheekiness ( is there such word he he) in writing. A story about a women against all odds surviving after the death of her father. "Ajar aku benda yang paling sukar dan aku akan belajar"( teach me the hardest lesson and I will learn) is her moto in life. Ops! my class had started have to go.